"I'm so forgetful, but you always remind me. You're the only one who brings me peace."
I am so forgetful. I'll wake up irritated. Or sleepy. Or hungry. Hungry for more than just food and thirsty for more than just water. I expect this need to be fulfilled so I sleep more...I eat more...and I try, and try, and try to stop running in circles so I can drink up His love. This strange yet beautifully sufficient love that I don't deserve.
Sometimes we are all too forgetful. Things go wrong, people fail us (people will always fail us), we put our trust in the wrong things, we stub our toe (literally this morning), and we forget. And it takes things so small like the palm of someone's hand to remind us of His love. I'll be walking to my car and feel this pull and I'm no longer irritated. I'm no longer hungry. I'm no longer thirsty. And I know He's holding me because everything become's more bearable, and I stop running in circles. I stop running away from Him at all. And we just sit together, and that's enough for the whole entire world. I just wish I wouldn't forget. I wrote Hebrew all up and down my arms and legs and that is a reminder. Africa is a reminder. My friends are a reminder. My family is a reminder. Caroline is a reminder. He is the only one who brings us peace, and He is the only one who is enough.
Capture this moment, and the next, and the next, and the next. Because if we sit waiting for tomorrow, then see ya to, today. Today is so beautiful because today we are breathing. Africa is in 4 months and I'm so anxious to just, be there. But I know that this time, in this moment, may be just be where I'm growing the most.
I am sorry for running in circles.
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